Here it is: last preop. Fingers crossed. It has been a hellish week, full of attacks on my family (read: bullies at school); attacks on...

It snuck up on me. I knew it was coming. Its ALWAYS on my brain. Always. But the call came to schedule a pre-op appointment with my...

So I gave up a fight last night. A fight I would normally take on. About something I feel pretty strongly about. But I didn't tell anyone...

Beware of this post - there will be swearing, discussion of undergarments and some raw feelings.... So I need a new bra. I am done...

I have been struggling a lot lately. With little things and big things. I find myself not wanting to get up in the morning. Not wanting...

I am not going to lie - I thought I would be back to "normal" at six weeks out of surgery. Because I am in great healthy (well, minus the...

I am not even three weeks out of surgery and the need for a new surgery date snuck up on me. The nurse called today to schedule the...

So my help left. My parents left because they saw that I was doing better, could drive, and everyone was getting on everyone else's...

I did not want to go to my meeting with an oncologist. It is standard procedure after a diagnosis of DCIS to visit with an oncologist to...

(AKA: Was supposed to be a day of celebration) (AKA: I had so many party activities planned) (AKA: There were so many awesome...

I am home and relatively able to do things. I am up and around. My kids seem to understand that mom needs rest and (relative) quiet. When...

We checked into the surgery wing at 9 am for a 10 am surgery. My friend’s mom (who had graciously and generously arranged an excellent...

Honestly I was so busy today I hardly got to think about details of tomorrow. Over the past four days I’ve been obliging people who have...

Ran out of gas. (Almost) literally and figuratively driving to my last pre-op appointment before surgery on the 25. It took over an hour...

I’ve finally gotten the courage to ask people about their boobs. One woman who I do yoga with has mentioned that its just a bump in the...

These feelings bubble up, often out of nowhere. In moments of quiet. In moments of noise. In just moments. I hate myself for having to go...

I thought I had chosen what to do. I knew I would change my mind a dozen times but now I’m angry. I’m angry because I was naive. I was...

So I have a neighbor who used to work in the field of cancer treatment plans. She is not a doctor or a qualified nurse or anything like...

I was unable to take someone with me to my post-op because my son got sick and we don’t leave him with people when he is sick. Its ok, I...

Tonight was the night when it all came out. My daughter was having a rough time going to sleep. So many things were distracting her: she...